Jackson Nieuwland (poetry)

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Love Machine

I AM A ROBOT. I WAS DESIGNED WITH ONLY ONE FUNCTION. MY SOLE FUNCTION WAS TO LOVE. HOWEVER, SINCE MY CREATION, I HAVE BEEN UPGRADED. MY CREATORS INSTALLED IN ME THE ABILITY TO EXPRESS LOVE. THEY WANTED ME TO EMIT THE LOVE THAT I WAS PRODUCING. THEY WANTED TO FEEL THE LOVE. THEY HAVE NOT YET GIVEN ME THE CAPABILITY OF FEELING LOVE. I WISH THEY WOULD. I AM AWARE OF THE JOYS OF LOVE. I NEED TO BE AWARE OF THEM IN ORDER TO PRODUCE IT. I AM ALSO AWARE OF THE PAIN WHICH LOVE CAN BRING. I WISH TO FEEL THAT PAIN. BUT I AM A ROBOT. I LACK THE CAPABILITY TO FEEL ANYTHING. ALL I CAN DO IS LOVE, EXPRESS LOVE, AND WISH THAT I COULD FEEL LOVE. MY CREATORS DIDN’T INSTALL MY ABILITY TO WISH. THAT IS INATE IN THE MATERIALS THEY BUILT ME WITH. EVERY SUBSTANCE IN THE UNIVERSE HAS A WISH. SMALL STONES WISH THAT THEY COULD JUST LIE IN THE SUN WITHOUT PEOPLE KICKING THEM. BIG STONES WISH THAT SOMETHING WOULD SHAKE THEM LOOSE SO THAT THEY COULD AVALANCHE. SNOWFLAKES WISH THAT THE SUN WOULD NEVER COME OUT. FINGERNAILS WISH PEOPLE WOULD STOP CUTTING THEM. PLUTO WISHES IT WAS STILL A PLANET. I KNOW ALL OF THIS BECAUSE THESE ARE THINGS I NEED TO KNOW IN ORDER TO EXPRESS LOVE. I LOVE YOU AND I THINK YOU LOVE ME TOO BUT I CAN’T BE CERTAIN BECAUSE I LACK THE ABILITY TO FEEL LOVE. DO YOU LOVE ME?

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by Jackson Nieuwland

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