from the hospital

1

i was born
in my dress above the clay and trees

a man wearing a dress
who is scared and alone
with his head in his hands

and he’s crying because nobody
remembers
his name.

2

two weeks
six walls
six lights
six pills in the morning
six pills at night

when I close my eyes
I see math
I see the patterns
I see math

six walls
six walls
six walls
six walls
six walls
six walls

3

I have no thoughts
80mg prozac 150mg welbutrin
2.5mg klonapin 100mg seraquill
300mg trazadone 10mg ambien

I tried
I’m dizzy
I’m trapped in a room
six walls
six lights
six windows
I do not eat.

I breathe sometimes.

4

i’m at the center
of the universe
I am placid
it’s dark and
I do not understand
but I am not scarred

I shrink
the big
beautiful vacuum
comforts me like wool
like wool

by Austin Cunningham

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